Quote from: Ultra on September 11, 2015, 12:39:08 PM
Solar, you're ADHD? No fucking way...I never would have guessed that. LOL

Actually a serious concussion cured it about 10 years ago, but with it went a lot of other quality attributes.

Quote from: Solar on September 11, 2015, 12:47:23 PM

Actually a serious concussion cured it about 10 years ago, but with it went a lot of other quality attributes.

Sorry about your concussion.  Are you alright now?

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Okay, I will bite and answer your question.   Let's see what happens.  What are my positive attributes.   I don't know if autism brings these things are not are if these are traits of just being me but here they are. [/Paragraph 1]

1.  I believe that I am good in my analytical ability. 

One quick example:  Feminists claim there is a wage gap.   To me, it makes no sense and here is why.  Men make x amount of dollars per hour at various jobs.  The wage gap says that women make fraction amount of x that men make.   If this is true then why wouldn't companies hire mostly women?  Companies could cut their cost significantly by cutting out the labor that costs more.  Logically, there has to be other factors at play. 

Another example:  Feminists keep claiming that rape culture exists in the USA.  Again, this makes no sense because rapists are locked up and sent to prison and rapists are actually vilified and hated.   Look at pedophiles.  They're hated immensely.  In Islamic countries as far as I can tell, rape culture exists in them and why don't feminists ever mention them?   

2.  I do try to be open minded on things.   For example, like what I did with Paragraph 1.  My view of reality is limited to what I know and understand.  I accept the possibility that I'm wrong on something or my reasoning is fallacious.   

Example:   I examine feminist talking points again and again to determine if my own reasoning is fallacious and maybe I'm missing something.  I have always have that gut feeling I'm missing something.  My reasoning on every paper I posted on this forum could be wrong and it feels as though when I debate and argue with others I'm debating with myself.   

3.  I do believe that I have an excellent writing style and a pretty good command of the English language.  Not perfect mind you and I'm sure I do have grammatical and spelling mistakes.   

Example:  I think this is self-explanatory. 

4.   I can have an intense laser like focus on the things I enjoy.  I can be at a desk for hours trying to solve a computer problem. 

Example:  I had to create a Tic-Tac-Toe game with an AI player using what is called the Min-Max Algorithm. 

5.   I am willing to help others whenever I can.

6.   

Quote from: cubedemon on September 11, 2015, 01:48:36 PM
Sorry about your concussion.  Are you alright now?

No, I had severe memory loss along with IQ, though the brain compensated in other areas.
Don't ask what I forgot, because I can't remember what they were, only that I can't recall things as easily as I used to.

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Okay, I will bite and answer your question.   Let's see what happens.  What are my positive attributes.   I don't know if autism brings these things are not are if these are traits of just being me but here they are. [/Paragraph 1]

1.  I believe that I am good in my analytical ability. 

One quick example:  Feminists claim there is a wage gap.   To me, it makes no sense and here is why.  Men make x amount of dollars per hour at various jobs.  The wage gap says that women make fraction amount of x that men make.   If this is true then why wouldn't companies hire mostly women?  Companies could cut their cost significantly by cutting out the labor that costs more.  Logically, there has to be other factors at play. 

Another example:  Feminists keep claiming that rape culture exists in the USA.  Again, this makes no sense because rapists are locked up and sent to prison and rapists are actually vilified and hated.   Look at pedophiles.  They're hated immensely.  In Islamic countries as far as I can tell, rape culture exists in them and why don't feminists ever mention them?   

2.  I do try to be open minded on things.   For example, like what I did with Paragraph 1.  My view of reality is limited to what I know and understand.  I accept the possibility that I'm wrong on something or my reasoning is fallacious.   

Example:   I examine feminist talking points again and again to determine if my own reasoning is fallacious and maybe I'm missing something.  I have always have that gut feeling I'm missing something.  My reasoning on every paper I posted on this forum could be wrong and it feels as though when I debate and argue with others I'm debating with myself.   

3.  I do believe that I have an excellent writing style and a pretty good command of the English language.  Not perfect mind you and I'm sure I do have grammatical and spelling mistakes.   

Example:  I think this is self-explanatory. 

4.   I can have an intense laser like focus on the things I enjoy.  I can be at a desk for hours trying to solve a computer problem. 

Example:  I had to create a Tic-Tac-Toe game with an AI player using what is called the Min-Max Algorithm. 

5.   I am willing to help others whenever I can.

6.

I've no doubt there is a Fed Govt job perfectly suited for you.
The Govt has counselors that can help you get placed perfectly. Look into it, they need analytical minds studying data, from satellite mapping to God knows what.

Quote from: Solar on September 11, 2015, 02:25:47 PM
No, I had severe memory loss along with IQ, though the brain compensated in other areas.

Oh man, I'm sorry my friend.   I am glad your brain did compensate in other areas.  What other areas did your brain compensate for?

Quote from: Solar on September 11, 2015, 02:25:47 PMI've no doubt there is a Fed Govt job perfectly suited for you.

Seriously?  You think so?   What makes you think that?

Do you think I have an accurate assessment of myself based upon what I've written here or would you need more data?

Quote from: Solar on September 11, 2015, 02:25:47 PM
The Govt has counselors that can help you get placed perfectly. Look into it, they need analytical minds studying data, from satellite mapping to God knows what.

I guess I could give that a try.  Do you have any tips on where I can start?

Quote from: cubedemon on September 11, 2015, 02:59:41 PM
Oh man, I'm sorry my friend.   I am glad your brain did compensate in other areas.  What other areas did your brain compensate for?

I'm still somewhat ADD, but totally dumped the hyper part.
Before the accident, I couldn't sit at a computer for very long, had to keep moving.'
Also would constantly misplace things due to serious multitasking, like leaving tools on a job etc.
My focus has improved greatly though.
Seriously?  You think so?   What makes you think that?

QuoteDo you think I have an accurate assessment of myself based upon what I've written here or would you need more data?

I guess I could give that a try.  Do you have any tips on where I can start?

You bet!
https://www.opm.gov/policy-data-oversight/disability-employment/

Quote from: Solar on September 11, 2015, 03:17:56 PM
I'm still somewhat ADD, but totally dumped the hyper part.
Before the accident, I couldn't sit at a computer for very long, had to keep moving.'
Also would constantly misplace things due to serious multitasking, like leaving tools on a job etc.
My focus has improved greatly though.

Hmmm, I guess in some ways a bad thing turned into a good thing or did a good thing turn into a bad thing.  I guess it depends upon how you look at it?

Quote from: Solar on September 11, 2015, 03:17:56 PM
You bet!
https://www.opm.gov/policy-data-oversight/disability-employment/

Thanks!

I will admit that I have a major fear.   Sometimes I can say something and put my own foot in it.   We live in a PC world especially with feminazis(feminists).  Let's say I am able to get a job there and I say something inadvertently wrong and I'm accused of misogyny or sexual harassment.  How would I handle something like that?   

Quote from: cubedemon on September 11, 2015, 03:30:15 PM
Hmmm, I guess in some ways a bad thing turned into a good thing or did a good thing turn into a bad thing.  I guess it depends upon how you look at it?

Yeah, be careful what you ask for. I asked God if he could do something about my hyper activity, so he tossed a deer on my bike at midnight.

QuoteThanks!

I will admit that I have a major fear.   Sometimes I can say something and put my own foot in it.   We live in a PC world especially with feminazis(feminists).  Let's say I am able to get a job there and I say something inadvertently wrong and I'm accused of misogyny or sexual harassment.  How would I handle something like that?

There's not a thing they can do about it, it's part of your disability.

Quote from: Ultra on September 10, 2015, 11:10:39 AM
I know this is off-topic but out of curiousity was this at ITT? The same thing happened to me.

MATC - Milwaukee Area Technical College (Programming in Dbase 3 & Microsoft Basic) were the first time.  The instructor asked for a routine to accept input from the keyboard...  I DID a routine that did everything...  rubout, backspacing, inserting... into the text as it appeared on the screen...  in about 5 minutes.   At the time, I was on my second rewrite of BBS software, and needed ideas/help with organizing text into a high speed searchable database.  The help I got was completely unexpected - I wound up redesigning the user interface as I described for 3 modes with help descriptions (something I've never seen anywhere on the Web, but ought to be everywhere).   I protested a bit, but the instructor explained I could learn more by helping others than being one-of-them, so I did... it was worth it.

The next time was WCTC - Ameritech class, when we got to the PBX portion, I sat down and logged into a Definity PBX using the INIT password ... thanks to AT&T's poor security, we had hacked it years before ...  before the instructor would believe me, I showed him exactly where and how it was stored on the backups, how it was encoded and why it took only 3 attempts to completely decode their "character substitution password" system.
I took that class to get certified, which eventually lead to the field I'm working in, Optical Carrier - and I positively LOVE it.  The important part was that "shingle" and filling in those "gaps" in knowledge where I had not had exposure.
It was and expensive class at the time - I didn't learn a ton, but what I did learn was essential to what I do now.

My two sons have encountered the same stuff - one is into Cyber Security, the other is an self-taught programmer, Vbasic, C#, and whatever else he stumbles across....  Like most programmers, they don't fit the socialite mold well, but, think in "Coder Logic" or "Computer Logic" - those that write code, or are married to one, know exactly what I'm talking about - it's just different mindset, very mentally time consuming.   The only time his monitor doesn't have lines of code displayed, is when the program(s) are actually running, or he's answering an email about debugging his weather station software.  He's really good, but, like everyone, has gaps - so school is a good idea, IMO.

Quote from: cubedemon on September 10, 2015, 12:00:31 PM
Sorry Bill about your Internet service.  I know that sucks.

Anyway, I don't really have much time to write either and I will respond more thoroughly when I get a chance.   

What I can say is the communication differences and style between me and the other members of this forum is extremely fascinating to me.

I agree completely.  It is quite interesting how different people, through different reasonings, actually desire the same outcome...  Liberty.   Obviously, I subscribe to "... where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is Liberty".

I'm waiting on a delivery at the moment...

Quote from: cubedemon on September 11, 2015, 07:23:36 AM
This is an excellent example of what is called theory of mind.   I really love this example and illustrates perfectly I have difficulty functioning with other people.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Theory_of_mind

You were able to understand "that others have beliefs, desires, intentions, and perspectives that are different from one's own."   For me, I understand that people have differing beliefs, desires, intentions and perspectives but I have difficulty understanding what they are.   You are able to do this well. 

I grew up in a family business.  If anyone thinks that's easy, what would you think if your dad said, "There is someone out there that can do your job 2x faster, 2x better and for 1/2 the money I pay you.   So, tell me, what makes you so special?"    "...I'm your son...?"    "Keep going.... I'm waiting..."   That kind of stuff is not intuitive, it was learned, so anyone can learn, IMO.   My dad had to learn plenty the hard way, "We trade time for money.  Make yourself worth it."  "When you drive into our business, WHAT do you see?  Try to put yourself in the mind of the customer, start seeing what they see - now what do you see?   Start fixing what you see wrong."   Like I said, it is training, teaching yourself to see through the eyes of your customers, giving them what they need, (or creating a need).  Showing some daily progress makes everyone feel better, me, my boss, etc., and it's a way to reducing a large project down to a series of smaller, easily completed projects.   Some project managers make project outlines on paper, some do it in their heads - but everyone manages the process in tiny bites.

Quote from: cubedemon on September 11, 2015, 07:23:36 AM
Without this knowledge of what you would have done I would not known what I could have done differently, where I was wrong in my actions and why.

That's why I was the Job Foreman.   Ability to perform a job and ability to organize a project so it can be done as smaller, manageable "jobs" are not the same thing.  Good managers are just that, they understand processes as a series of steps ....  just like a Coder thinks in many functions make up the program.

Quote from: cubedemon on September 11, 2015, 07:23:36 AM
Part of this diminished theory of mind is some of your reactions to my posts.  I don't understand why you all reacted the way you did instead (calling me a whiner, socialist, etc) of discussing where my logic was off .   Was it my posting style?   Was it the content?   

Who cares?   You had a question, Solar and I have some possible answers / perspectives or life experiences that might help you find the right answer.   We've answered HONESTLY and SINCERELY.

Quote from: cubedemon on September 11, 2015, 07:23:36 AM
You say everyone fakes confidence from time to time.   Can you please explain that concept further.  I didn't know this and I wouldn't even know how to fake confidence?   

Every "trip into the unknown" takes a certain amount of trust.  Why do you flip a light switch to the "ON" position?  Well, you're pretty confident it'll turn on the light.  Without thinking about it, you're trusting the power company, switch, wiring & bulb to perform as expected, like they have before, based on PAST experience.   You ARE quite  confident it'll work as expected.

Self-confidence is another way of saying to yourself, "I can do this, so relax, and let's see this thing through."
Faked self-confidence is saying, "Hell no, this isn't gonna work!  But, despite all logic, rules of nature and my mom & dad's best advice...   I'm gonna try to - heck, I think it'll work!"    Ie., people get married every day.

...slowly catching up....

Quote from: kj4adn on September 14, 2015, 07:37:13 AM
I grew up in a family business.  If anyone thinks that's easy, what would you think if your dad said, "There is someone out there that can do your job 2x faster, 2x better and for 1/2 the money I pay you.   So, tell me, what makes you so special?"    "...I'm your son...?"    "Keep going.... I'm waiting..."   That kind of stuff is not intuitive, it was learned, so anyone can learn, IMO.   My dad had to learn plenty the hard way, "We trade time for money.  Make yourself worth it."  "When you drive into our business, WHAT do you see?  Try to put yourself in the mind of the customer, start seeing what they see - now what do you see?   Start fixing what you see wrong."   Like I said, it is training, teaching yourself to see through the eyes of your customers, giving them what they need, (or creating a need).  Showing some daily progress makes everyone feel better, me, my boss, etc., and it's a way to reducing a large project down to a series of smaller, easily completed projects.   Some project managers make project outlines on paper, some do it in their heads - but everyone manages the process in tiny bites.

It took me a while but I realized that you're right.   If I work for someone else or own my own business someone out there will do your job 2x faster, 2x better and for 1/2 the money I pay you.   For owing a business another business could make a better product and much cheaper than you.  If I work for someone else, you're right we do trade time for money.   If I am slower than others at doing something or the boss has to take more time to explaining things to me than others than it would be logically correct to go with the cheaper employee in which they don't have to invest as much time and money. 

This causes me to pause and reflect and ask myself?

a.  Where can I work in which my positive traits will be a major asset and not a handicap.  What are my positive traits? (I answered solar on this one)

b.  Are there any negative traits of myself that is possible to improve to become sufficient enough in which my positive traits will outshine my negative traits.   What negative traits are realistically possible for me to improve upon and what negative traits are traits that I don't have to worry about so much?

c.   What are my options out there?

d.  What can interfere with my progress? 

What I would have to do is to distill the best possible self and be able to fit into a career and organization(s) that my best possible self can fit into.  If all of these are the things I should know then one of the major mistakes I've been making is asking the wrong question(s).  One of them was How does the system work and how does society work?   What if it is the wrong question to ask? 

I am going to try Solar's idea of the federal government and see what the heck happens.   These are questions I would need to answer I think.   It's similar to the phrase that Sun Tsu said of knowing yourself and knowing your enemy. 

Quote from: kj4adn on September 14, 2015, 07:37:13 AMThat's why I was the Job Foreman.   Ability to perform a job and ability to organize a project so it can be done as smaller, manageable "jobs" are not the same thing.  Good managers are just that, they understand processes as a series of steps ....  just like a Coder thinks in many functions make up the program.

That Makes sense!  You modulize the project is what you do. 

Quote from: kj4adn on September 14, 2015, 07:37:13 AMWho cares?   You had a question, Solar and I have some possible answers / perspectives or life experiences that might help you find the right answer.   We've answered HONESTLY and SINCERELY.

Do you know what my friend?  You guys actually did answer me.   I really do appreciate it.   Your answers have been more useful than the therapy I have received.   You guys give practical down to earth type answers.  With therapy, all they do is ask questions of me and write in their notepads.   One can only vent for so long.  Eventually, one needs to be able to obtain solutions.   This is one major issue I have with therapy, psychology, and psychiatry. 

I do care so I can understand what people are trying to convey to me correctly and so as to avoid pissing them off.

Quote from: kj4adn on September 14, 2015, 07:37:13 AMEvery "trip into the unknown" takes a certain amount of trust.  Why do you flip a light switch to the "ON" position?  Well, you're pretty confident it'll turn on the light.  Without thinking about it, you're trusting the power company, switch, wiring & bulb to perform as expected, like they have before, based on PAST experience.   You ARE quite  confident it'll work as expected.

I never thought about this but you're right and when they don't go on when I flip the switch I wonder if the power is out or if I need to change the light bulb.   Speaking of past experience, my interpretations may not be the same as others.   That is one of the things I've really had to learn through my childhood and teen years.   People have different experiences, thoughts, and feelings on things than I.   Even then, there are times I don't even understand how they get to their conclusions.   It seems to me that people are a rich tapestry of experiences, personality, thoughts and feelings with differences and similarities.   People are both alike and different.   

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Quote from: kj4adn on September 14, 2015, 07:37:13 AMSelf-confidence is another way of saying to yourself, "I can do this, so relax, and let's see this thing through."

I think I may have misunderstood what confidence is.   I thought confidence was the same as arrogance or similar. I thought one was supposed to be a humble person in life?  What do we mean by confidence, arrogance and humility?   Is confidence different from arrogance?  If it is, how do I avoid arrogance be confidence and be humble all at the same time?

Quote from: kj4adn on September 14, 2015, 07:37:13 AM

Faked self-confidence is saying, "Hell no, this isn't gonna work!  But, despite all logic, rules of nature and my mom & dad's best advice...   I'm gonna try to - heck, I think it'll work!"    Ie., people get married every day.

...slowly catching up....

I think I sort of understand.   What you're saying is don't treat the laws of existence, ones attributes, society's standards as an absolute solid, brick wall but treat them as permeable like water.  Is that correct?   For example, human beings do not have wings so we can't fly and gravity keeps us on the ground.  This idea is not solid and absolute though because since we understand physics better we were able to create things that gave us enough thrust with enough stability to lift a person or a group of people off the ground.   We gave ourselves artificial wings therefore circumventing gravity. 

I read about the speed of light and why folks and scientists say one can't go past the speed of light.  It is because there are particles which give our subatomic particles mass.   As one goes faster, objects pick up more and more mass.   Question is, if the principle of permeability holds up for the speed of light what if to break the light barrier there was a way to prevent particles from gaining mass?   Just a food for thought.  Could one circumvent the mass problem?

Maybe one solution to the mass problem would be to have this fine, lovely woman constantly scream at the object attempting to go past the speed of light and maybe her screaming would be able to achieve a frequency that would scare off the particles that give other particles mass.   What do you think?   

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nvYyGTmcP80

This is something you could do. 

How one man earns up to $1,000 a week by standing in line.

http://finance.yahoo.com/news/one-man-earns-1-000-175901073.html

Quote from: walkstall on September 14, 2015, 04:37:54 PM
This is something you could do. 

How one man earns up to $1,000 a week by standing in line.

http://finance.yahoo.com/news/one-man-earns-1-000-175901073.html

This is a very wonderful idea.

If you're just looking for a JOB ...  more often than not, pretty intelligent people that have been run thru the wringer turn to what some would consider "mindless" occupations.   Driving a Truck, gives them plenty of time to think & decompress, for instance.   Delivering newspapers on a rural route...  one thing they have in common is mental free time, and limited interaction with other people.   A couple of years of that, and maybe you've gathered your thoughts well enough to jump back into the fray again.

If you do such a thing, get some tapes, disks, SDs or whatever... of stuff to listen to, instead of over-the-air radio.   Make the time profitable in the long run.   I like to listen to the Bible on SDs chips, or USB thumb drives.   Some people listen to old time radio broadcasts.